So we went to the park. Now I'm sitting here listening to nirvana and I'm about to go back to work. I want to finish another hour and a half worth of compiling lists for Emily's dad, then I'm going to work on more experimenting with music.

The reason I'm doing it is because I always just accepted that I'm a better music lover than a music maker. But I'd like to see what I am capable of. My last lyrics were pretty embarrassing haha. But I've always been embarrassed about anything I did artistically, whether it was good or not. And anyway you don't get good at anything if you give up before you even start trying. And really I'm sure the reason I failed at my musical endeavors was because, no one was willing or able to explain it to me. You can't send a newbie into a situation and expect them to know what to do right away, I never really got into it and the pressure to produce stuff of value didn't help. I always need to get deep into an artists mindset before I can start to create any art that is better than trash.

I'm excited to do it. To be honest I'd rather just start doing that now. But, I'm exercising self control and finishing a bit more work first. I have drawbacks such as lacking technical knowledge of chords and such. Right now I'm focusing more on the breakdown of constructing lyrics according to the mood and the message of the song.

I haven't told many people about it since it's kind of embarrassing. :P